I don't get you. You're actually okay with blowing me off until you need a confidence-boost. It's pathetic. Remember ignoring me, talking crap about my friends, my family and arguing my faith? Of course not, you've forgotten everything you once knew about me, and everything that's happened between us. Don't worry, I forgive you. However, I'm done letting you walk back into my life whenever it works out best for you. You can be in or out of my life, either way I'll cope. It sickens me that I thought it was okay to do things with you that only turned you into more of a narcassist, and left me even more insecure. We've been friends for about four years. You've known her since January. You know what, maybe she WAS some miraculous lady that came into and changed your life. Perhaps you like her friends better than mine. But that's a-okay with me, she is a really cool person. Unfortunately, she has somebody else, and I want to be sympathetic towards how much that hurts you, but you really make me feel like a charred, dirt-coated lamb chop whenever you speak to me, for the first time in what felt like eternity, and it has nothing to do with me as a friend. Do you not like speaking to me? Am I too awkward, too out there, or maybe even too naive? I honestly can't wrap my mind around it. A year ago, we'd be making places to get out of this country together. But today, those are all just jokes. How was I supposed to know to prepare for you to throw me away? To hell with you. I'm sick of seeing you so giddy and madly fallen for this girl when you know you're just setting yourself up to get hurt. It's sort of ironic, how you used to try and fight with me, because at this moment, I really just want to call you, and scream your head off. But, you're you, so you'd make me out to sound like a fool. The sad thing is, you've changed, and I'd give so much to have the last year's you back, but you absolutey love this year's tool you, and you'll go to no effort to change. It's a pity, you used to be one of my best friends. End rant.
*englightening fact~ narcassism used to be a psychological dissorder. This explains much.
Listening to: Adam's Song (Blink-182)